Burn your ship! The motivation of desperation
I want you to do something right now. Write down your goal. Not in your phone, not typed on the computer. Use actual and paper to write it down. It will connect you to that goal in a way electronics can not.
Whatever it takes, burn your ship and stop being "half in" on your goals. If you don't have a goal that puts a fire in your belly every day to reach it, then you need a new goal!